Yes. I am being a bit cliché.
I Love You. Those 3 little words. Powerful, aren’t they?
Something else I’ve learned about myself over the last few years is I need to hear those words. I don’t need to hear them every single day but I need to hear them.
I also need to say them. It isn’t enough for me to just assume the people in my life know that I love them. I’ll go all cliché on you again and say that life is short and as my Daddy puts it, “You just never know what a day will bring.” He’s right.
The one thing wrong with the relationship I had with F. was that I could never tell him I loved him. When I did it was just awkward. He said it to me from time to time and it was nice to hear but it almost felt as if he did it because he felt some kind of obligation. I won’t speculate on whether he was sincere or not because there is no way for me to know. Not going there.
My point here is the one thing I KNOW I need in a relationshipbis love. I need to feel it, show it, say it, and hear it. I don’t want anyone to feel it’s an obligation. I am no longer a one-night-stand-this-doesn’t-have-to-mean-anything kind of girl. I want the real thing.
Know if I tell you I love you that I MEAN IT. I don’t take it lightly and when I express it, it’s real.